Blame Game

Don’t know if I’m over you or I’m just numb to the pain

Want to try and reach out but know I should refrain

I’m tired of your name flying around my head

Even when I try to escape with dreams in my bed

I know that this is not you or I’s fault

But I can’t stand that we must stop in a halt

I want to see the next chapter, see where it goes

But I’ll probably just be left sitting here counting my woes

Forgot I was ever upset, ever bothered by how I was treated

But I seem to relish being cared for, then being defeated

In these cat and mouse games, I’m always the one giving chase

Like a bad NASCAR driver, I always end up in last place

But I should just cut my losses, right, that’ll be easy

Until I remember when I saw you and I got nervous and queasy

Never felt this way before, scared I never will again

Don’t care if the feeling is mutual, just wish you’d be my friend

Should I have gone though the effort to grow and change

If it would still leave me hurting and feeling just as deranged

I’m not sure yet, but I am sure of this

Of everyone that’s gone, you’re the one I miss