If

If I ask and you say no, I will feel lesser

If I ask and you say yes, I will feel pressure

When you’re away, I feel like I’m lost in deep space

But I glow bright as the sun when I imagine your face

When you come close to me, I get so warm

So much that I melt like a candle, I lose form

Got me thinking about you, in this place all alone

Wanting you here beside me, like this is our home

But it could never work, I’m sure you’d say no

Why could someone like you ever stoop so low

But a yes, oh, how sweet it would be

What an honor it’d be, to connect you and me

Go off on a walk, look for our favorite birds

Then a picnic in the park, while we exchange words

Stay until the night, stare up at the moon

Get lost in your eyes as your romantic buffoon

It couldn’t be, how could I be the right guy

Guess I’ll never know if I don’t man up and try

Even if I stepped up, I’m not sure how I’d do

Maybe I’m biting off more than I can chew

Plight of the loner, I guess, I don’t know what it’s like

Never played baseball, don’t know about strikes

So I guess this is it, I’ll never know how it feels

Just going to keep tumbling down, head over heels

But that’s the old me, that’s the quitter I was

The one who gave up on love just because

What happens if I don’t do things right

Something positive becomes a source of plight

Always second guessing, thinking I’m wrong

Should’ve been slow, but hurried headlong

Dove too deep, made bear my whole heart

Only for us to remain forever apart

Or maybe it’s meant to be and I’m just afraid

That what I think we have would one day degrade

Don’t know what’s worse, is it failure or pain

Yet if I don’t speak up, both will remain

But you’re on your own way and I’m on mine

Think even we aren’t together I’ll be just fine

Maybe catch up sometime, yeah that would be cool

Tell you about that time I was the April fool