Still

I still love you

But I’ve changed how I feel

You leave me feeling blue

Not sure I’ll ever heal

You used to call and I’d smile

Eager to hear your voice

Now I could let my phone ring a while

It wouldn’t be a difficult choice

Thinking of when I’d put you first

Thought it’d bring you relief

Even when it made me worse

I hung onto that belief

Even did your work for you

Because it’s what you wanted

Knew it’d take you from my view

Now you’re just a ghost in my mind, haunted

You asked, and I gave

Then you asked again

Now is that how you’d behave

With someone that’s your friend

I take it personal, feel betrayed

Says my lonely heart

But really, I’m dismayed

Knowing we drift further apart

You want to check in, say hi

Pretend it’s all okay

But just as fast, you’ll say bye

And again you run away

And here I am trapped

In this world of what you said

All of it, I’d have mapped

For just a crumb of your love’s bread

Starved of any love

Left unresponsive, malnourished

If you hadn’t puppeteered me from above

Maybe I could have flourished

But I guess it’s over now

And it’s my job to feel better

So I’ll leave your life, take a bow

And never write another letter