Full Plate

I look to the north and what do I see

Those big blue mountains looking back at me

I know home awaits on the other side

But I’m on life’s hike and my legs are already fried

Can’t tell if I’m happy here or just want to cry

One moment you smile, the next you’re waiting around to die

I’m so tired of feeling as someone out of place

Someone who I wish was without a face

So I could hide away and avoid this mess

Don’t have to pretend, don’t have to impress

I could just do what I wish and not worry

Not get caught up in the hustle and hurry

Have the bright spots, that’s for sure

But I wish things were back to how they were

I’ve proved I’m a good person and that’s fine

But I guess I don’t care since I crossed the county line

Nobody to relate to, nobody did it my way

Nobody would listen to me ramble and choose to stay

Maybe I should get involved, show some spirit

If only the idea of others didn’t make me fear it

I didn’t come this far to let it all go

But I wish I didn’t have to eat all this crow